...but I no longer live my life with expectations. Yesterday, while watching a video where ladies were voicing what motivated them, the first words I heard were: I'm motivated by the "big picture." I was stopped in my tracks; I could feel the pain of tears welling up in my eyes. I had to pause the video, and absorb the powerful emotion moving through me. I realized, in those moments, I haven't had a big picture for years. I've been surviving; failing to hope; struggling against time and fate; and releasing everything that ever mattered to me...into the wind. My shoulders shook with the revelation. When I was still again, a soft smile spread upon my face, like a pebble hitting a pond. Given the past few days, I could see, I have a "picture" now of some kind... Something I wrote, to a friend, past November, has returned to me...and a new light has sparked within my Soul.... These days, I now choose to Love and to Trust. That's my Big Picture... Bless ...
